sing me to sleep

A brand new day is less than an hour away and I'm not sure that I want to see it. I think I'd like to hibernate and sleep away the storm in my soul. Manufacture z's and plead in my dreams for my mind to clear all the clouds. Except the one that clothes the sun, I need that cloud. I need it a lot.

Happy new year. Hope it is storm free and easy.

nothin' but time

It is three am on a Saturday. Where did the evening go? Oh I don't know.

Swallowed up by solitude my soul has forgotten how to rest. This week has been strange and is unusual still. 

Dividing thoughts and discarding those unnecessary is a harder task than i thought it might be. My mind feels as big as the sea and just as deep. Maybe deeper. Definitely deeper. I know because i took the biggest thought and placed it on the bottom of my ocean mind and then used my fingers to count how many days it took to float to the top. 

Time can be daunting when with each moment comes another thought. 'Be brave', I say. 'Be brave!' For time is all that the world can give and all that I can give myself. Nothin' but time. 

Cat Power gave me ten minutes and fifty-six seconds of bliss over and over this evening to calm my sea. You should listen to it too, if you got the weight on your mind.

It is three thirty-one am on a Saturday. 

i am little river

and today I went exploring.

I let the caves cradle my solitary soul; the waves wash the thoughts from my mind. All but one. Far too beautiful to let go.

I let myself get lost.

I wanted to stay there in this place, stay lost but the evening winds blew me away from the deep blue. Lifted my sun kissed skin to the skies and I danced in a dream. It was there that I stayed.